“The physical reinvention of the world is endless, relentless, fascinating, exhaustive; nothing that seems solid is. If you could stand at just a little distance in time, how fluid and shape-shifting physical reality would be, everything hurrying into some other form, even concrete, even stone.”
I recently had someone tell me that I needed to take a look at how I was personally defining structure vs fluidity.
I literally said… “huh?”
I mean, I know that when I am styling, structure vs fluidity is something I am aware of. It is extremely realistic in the sense that I can see the art forming right in front of my eyes. I know there is almost a systematic approach behind the way I do and see things and, although the vs isn’t something I am thinking about, it is something I am creating a cognitive balance between.
However, this wasn’t told to me in reference to fashion (even though we use this correlation in fashion as almost a rule or code we are either breaking or stabilizing). It was announced to me in regards to the structure and fluidity I demand of my current life. It’s really about the life I am trying to keep up with, manifesting what I might be missing that I am not clearly seeing realistic correlations between (that is obvious).
I guess in the reality of things…. how I am flowing and the structure of my daily routines could consistently be out of whack, keeping me in an irrational rhythm that I physically, mentally and emotionally can not keep up with nor catch up with….This individual ended the statement with; “No one could keep up with”.
Maybe I have been overthinking, overworking, over rationalizing… granted, in my mind, I’ve been killing it…. well, at least my fashion has… bahahhahahaha.
Maybe I have lost the ability to delegate responsibly or is it merely a few tweaks in my daily schedule that can send me into fluid thinking and utter enlightenment.
("Unique Forms of Continuity in Space" by Umberto Boccioni. Image: sforzza - stock.adobe.com)
I will admit, I haven’t made time to read as much lately unless it is beneficial for business, I haven’t noticed time in relation to sunlight… and recently had to put my arms in front of my face as I came out my back door (headed to the weekly Style and Give Podcast taping) almost “vampire like” because I hadn’t been in nature for what seemed like months.
Am I hurrying for no reason?
Am I holding myself to a standard structure that isn’t even real?
Am I not taking the time I need to get back into nature?
Well, it's an obvious…Yes!
As the poet Mark Doty so graciously reminds us; nothing that seems solid is.
So I am taking inventory on how I am defining my personal structure vs fluidity now.
Since then, I started delegating a bit more, I got back out into nature… watched the trees swaying with the wind and the tulips buds falling off the trees like snow… and then… I started a new book.